Disjointed

I've been doing a little experimenting with dry point and drawing over the top of the prints. The idea seemed better in my head. I'll tip away at them slowly.

Next week I have my surgery, a mastectomy. It's going to be a big upheaval. I'm not worried about the surgery but more the after. I hope it doesn't knock me sideways and I'll be back on my feet quickly.  

It's going to be strange but if I can get through loosing my hair, having it all fall out in clumps I, sure I can manage this. Lets hope they don't find cancer and the chemo has gotten rid of everything. 

Make faeries popular in art again

Sunday drawing

New drawing

Just keep drawing, just keep drawing, drawing, drawing and you will get through.

A Bit Different

 Some new drawings that I have been tipping away at. Trying to be relaxed as possible and just going with the flow. I have been really fighting with myself, body and mind when It comes to drawing so just trying to give myself a break. What I would like to do with these is transfer them onto fabric and go over them with stitch. I am in such a panic to get as much work done as possible and I have so many little projects that need completing, its a constant battle. I'm up against my own body, other responsibilities and Dr appointments. Soon it will be surgery time and I worry that's going to floor me, especially as it will be on my drawing side. I just have to keep going, and not hit a wall.

Wood Witch, Cone Sculpture

'Wood Witch,' mixed- media 2023

 This piece has taken some making. It has already been made twice, each time the original body design (pictured below) blew up in the pit firing process. I blame the clay I was using, but I also saw it as a sign that this idea was not meant to be. So I decided to use the cone shape instead which I feel has worked out much better. This little bit of wood, worn smooth over time has been knocking about my studio for the longest time. I think I found it on the beach, but I have had it so long now I really couldn't tell you; just biding its time waiting to be used, constantly being picked up, fiddled with, looked at and put away again. The beads around the figures neck were found in a tiny tin in my grandmothers jewellery box, the tin was wrapped in wax paper. I dont know what they originally belonged to but felt the must have held some value to be kept the way they were. They are so minuet that I had to use a pair of tweezers and magnifying glasses to painstakingly thread them. The wood delicately stands freely in the ceramic cone.    

 

Bead detail

Head detail

original failed design

New Drawings

Roosters Song, mono-print with gouache and pencil

Untitled, pencil with gold leaf

 Just finished the Roosters song drawing above. not sure how happy I am with it. been struggling with my drawing and finding inspiration. I need to get out more maybe. Finding the act of drawing hard and not liking my painting/colouring or compositions. Its difficult. Wondering what the hell I'm doing half the time. What its all for, what am i supposed to be working towards besides the cheap high I get from the few likes on Instagram. It has to lead up to some sort of acknowledgement from the art world at some point, some sort of an exhibition. I'm sure it will work out.

Yesterday was my last day of chemo. Six rounds done and dusted. Just need to get over the sickness this round will cause and its onto surgery then radiation. The ride isnt over for another year. Another year of medication to keep the cancer at bay, every 3 weeks. The consultant says there is no reason why I cant have a normal life, but it will still be hard having it hanging over me. What is normal anyway?

It has to be done.