My journey to MidJourney

I'm very interested in this #midjourney app. I spent an afternoon telling it stories about dreaming of fancy pigeons and finches and so forth and this was the best image it came up with. I loved it. I love the abnormalities and the colours. I was very much against the AI apps when people were making the self portraits that were just nocking off digital artists styles. But after seeing artist who are using #midjourney in the paid app,creating their own style to fit their work I have become very interested. Especially for those bad pain days, days of nausea and fatigue when you just can't manage the studio. It could come in handy as a sort of sketchbook or extention of ones work and thoughts. 

So maybe I will jump on the band wagon but only if I can make it work for me. We are always learning and growing as artists. There's no harm in that.

As they say, watch this space...

So Tired

I suffer terribly from fatigue, as part of the fibromyalgia package. No amount of sleep, healthy eating, vitamins, magic potions or yoga can fix it. The frustration is insurmountable. It restricts me daily and is a constant fight against my own body. Ive had to leave my part-time job due to the fatigue. It is not fun falling asleep while other people are in the room or trying to talk to you. And driving, that is an anxiety filled ride that is best to be avoided when things are really bad. it effects my speech, cognitive abilities and has turned me into a simple mess.

I don't know which is worse the chronic pain or the fatigue. Probably the latter as it makes everything worse.

I took the above image yesterday with my phone and then added the text, in some way trying to purge the tiredness and share my frustration via my Instagram.
 It seems the Instagram algorithm has me more hidden than ever, not that many would get it, but it is nice in some way to think that someone out there might understand.

'Behold the Hand that Failed You...'

 My own personal milagro or ex-votos: 'Behold the Hand that Failed You...'
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(Milagros are religious folk charms that are traditionally used for healing purposes and as votive offerings in Mexico) (my own hand has failed me due to chronic pain)(but I am now managing)
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Nuestra Señora de los Milagros
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Bad Pain Day (self-Portrait)

 

Disfuntional hands

I get so far and I have to stop. Lost a lot of motor function in 2 of my fingers needed for detail drawing. Shaky hands and numb.Chronic pain in arms and hands. Head doesn't always connect with my hand. Some days are better than others. Desperate to get back to art but it is a rocky up hill climb.
I suppose I should change my style, work more with my right hand, loosen up, but it is easier said than done.
If you can do something you enjoy keep doing it every chance you can get